Karma

The things you truly need, though they are the most worthwhile to wait for, are the most painful to hope for. You must wait for them to arrive: when sought after, they elude you; when prompted, they become false. When you have found them, you will only know after many a harsh trial has befallen you, and if you must call out to them, it can only be done when the length of your silence can justify it - or it will be broken, and must begin anew.
Even a year is not long enough, it seems.

Sometimes it seems like something has changed, when it really hasn’t. The only thing that’s actually changed is what we compared it to. Take something for granted long enough, and if it goes away, you will be devastated; but when it returns, it may seem very foreign, and it may take a while to get used to it the way you were before - it is now compared to that period in between, thus seeming different when it really isn’t.
As obvious as it might all sound, it’s another one of those things I don’t think gets thought about often enough. I was thinking through a minor dilemma the other day, and when I thought about it this way, it seemed mind-numbingly simple and it was no longer anything to worry over. Things had just gone back to normal.
Perhaps sometimes it is a necessary thing, to get us to question what have come to accept; that short while when everything is better - perfect even - existing to tease us into action.
This has been a test of a change for the better. It was only a test. You may return to your normal activity…