the wait
The things you truly need, though they are the most worthwhile to wait for, are the most painful to hope for. You must wait for them to arrive: when sought after, they elude you; when prompted, they become false. When you have found them, you will only know after many a harsh trial has befallen you, and if you must call out to them, it can only be done when the length of your silence can justify it - or it will be broken, and must begin anew.
Even a year is not long enough, it seems.
